As I sit here alone….

As I sit here, I reminisce about life

I count my seconds

I gasp for another breath

I clench my fists

I look out the window and see the cars speed by

I wonder how long that couple next to me will last

I am running out of breath 

I count to ten

I try to smile

I try to joke to myself, but who am I kidding, I really feel alone

I want everyone to go

I just want to be alone….

I fantasize of being a bird, any bird is fine

I wish my mind did not have racing thoughts

I wish I could not remember the pain

I tell you, I cannot outrun my head

I try to bring my ego back

I, I, I…I always try….

I know that at the end, it is all about letting it go

I am not crazy, you see, I am on the other side of the mirror

I really cannot stand being myself at times, but at the end, I am all I have

I know I should not be selfish, but a wise ol’ folk told me to say NO a bit more

I know it has also been a while and that is okay, I am still here and I am still alive

I know that I am going to be okay, I have grown so much these past few months

I have something heavy all over me that I cannot see

I get on my knees to pray sometimes, but my biggest wish won’t come true

I cannot focus at all, oh how I wish this didn’t hurt

I wish I could run to somebody’s arms, but I don’t know if I am loved at all

I am very blue lately, and it is not turning bright any soon

I have not seen the stars in a long time because my skies do not shine anymore

I know you may think that I am lost but I know where I stand..the hard part is outrunning my faith

I know that no pill will do me a miracle

I only want to love myself but my heart is somewhere else

I worry so much, maybe because I am afraid

I feel like a child…maybe spoiled…maybe soiled

I don’t want your pitty, I just feel so shitty

I sit in the present yet I linger into the future 

I am tired of everything

I just want to say what is in my mind

I don’t dislike anyone but myself at times

I wish my life could have been what I adviced myself to do

I will turn it around and get a brand new start

I will prove that I can rule the world

I will no longer have pitty for myself

I will encourage myself to not drown in this sea

I will rise from my ashes

I will go as high as I can and go to heights I’ve never seen

I will not let anyone stomp over me

I will defend myself and stop blaming myself for others deeds

I will make sure they know of this poor soul who was left to die

I will use my anger and courage to tear through any barries that get in my way

I will teach those demons who is back to slay them back to my control

I will cut any obstacles with the sword of justice

I will show them a piece of my true nature

I will have the last laugh

Goodbye Sadness! 

                                Never yours,

                                  Viva Z. 😘

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Viva Zworski

A very talented individual who loves the beauty of art and being an artist to all of its extense. I am very spiritual, honest, and have a strong personality. I love doing independent movies and planning on higher projects on the near future. I paint, I sing, I photograph, Hosting, TV commercials, Media modeling and more..... Overall, I am just another human being like you.

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Readers Comments (4)

  1. This is the dumbest shit I’ve ever read. And try to not break your arm jerking yourself off lol “a very talented individual who loves the Beauty of art”

  2. Were your parents 1st cousins who were also bad at writing? This is hands down the absolute worst piece of shit I’ve ever had the displeasure of reading.

  3. Such a gentleman!
    I expected your type of comments.
    Will you please proofread for me?
    Your feedback is precious gold!
    Thank you for being observant. Bwahaha… [Jerking by the screen to your photos]
    -The best writer in the interwebz

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